theBunker

In my contemplations my aspiration

To become the perfect man,

Has risen some faults and flaws,

I need a new plan.

I know in my head what needs to be done,

But doing it seems so hard.

It’s like I’m trapped in a round room,

The windows of which are barred.

Because of this my outlook is blurred.

And I don’t know what to do.

It’s as if I must kill the shell I’m in,

For the true self to shine through.

This is not an option,

For I have too much to lose,

And I’ve worked hard to get here,

So the situation is not to be abused.

Then what other option but perseverance?

I want this all to end.

So I can return to be myself

And no longer offend.

I’m still here underneath,

Writhing in agony and pain,

For the visible self is not a friend,

I must be true once again.

This tenacity inside me,

Will ensure that I succeed.

And the sooner the better, so I can flourish,

And maybe my life can proceed.

My apologies for those who have put up with me,

Are deeper and truer than ever.

I hope that they can forgive, and help me break through,

And be close and true with me forever,

As I will be.

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…and they gave me a piece of paper, said, “Kid, see the phsychiatrist, room 604.”

And I went up there, I said, “Shrink, I want to kill.  I mean, I wanna, I

wanna kill.  Kill.  I wanna, I wanna see, I wanna see blood and gore and

guts and veins in my teeth.  Eat dead burnt bodies. I mean kill, Kill,

KILL, KILL.”  And I started jumpin up and down yelling, “KILL, KILL,” and

he started jumpin up and down with me and we was both jumping up and down

yelling, “KILL, KILL.”  And the sargent came over, pinned a medal on me,

sent me down the hall, said, “You’re our boy.”

Didn’t feel too good about it…

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You know… just an observation, but I used to hate never knowing what day its was.  Now I realise, that sometimes, it’s better not to know.  Because whatever we do, whatever we say, those days are still those days.  and there’s no escaping it, no taking your mind off things, you just have to hope the day goes by without reminders and triggers.

Whose fuckin idea was it to have a calender?

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Had an epiphany tonight.

Why am I depressed?
Because I’m constantly questioning my (/our) existance, myself…

And I’m so tired of not finding an answer.

Will I ever?

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I have a funny for you guys. It made me laugh a lot, I think some of us will appreciate it This is especially for you DPyro

“My husband was really unhappy with my mood swings, so he bought me a mood ring to monitor what kind of mood I am in each day…

We discovered that when I am in a good mood,it turns blue.

When I am in a bad mood, it leaves a big red mark on his fucking forehead.

Maybe next time, he’ll buy me a diamond.”

Love you guys, peace and positive vibes to everyone!

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funny, Jennabean, joke

To the ones that leave us burned, 

And leaves all the stones unturned.

To the ones that leave us scorned,

Lost and all forlorn.

To the things that made our lives hindered,

Know that we have family kindred.

To the people of the opposing thumb,

Be aware that we are dauntless and numb.

To the ones that continue to sear,

Your actions do not instill fear.

The damage done is deciding,

No longer are we hiding

Give Up.

And let us close the door.

vitaexodumest

25/05/09

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I suppose you could call this an insane asylum. We’ve segregated ourselves from the community, some by choice, others by force. While i know nothing about asylums, except from what I’ve seen in the pages of Batman and Detective Comics, I can safely assume we’re all just as crazy as the  villians locked up by Bruce Wayne. Yes that’s right, I do know his true identity! If you’ve read the comics and don’t know it by now, run, don’t walk, away from this place. You don’t belong here.

So I’m sure you’re wondering, what are the guards like? Well here’s the thing, we don’t have any. There are no rules but our own sense of morality. While some of us may have some twisted perceptions of right and wrong, our base morality remains intact. So keep your senses and consider the fellow next to you and you’ll be accepted. Be an ass, and you’ll most likely get a good slap from a “phat” package. Have fun in here. Beware the roaming dinosaur and the headbanging dragon. One bites, the other smites. Our people are as colorful as the Joker and some as two-face’d as well, two-face.

Enjoy your stay in this chaotic hellhole. I promise it’s the kind of place you would want to spend eternity in.

Regards,

navster

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